Digging deep.

A couple of nights ago, I was asked a very serious question by one of my life coaches; what in the hell do I wanna do with my life? As I sat down and thrashed it out with him, there were so many endeavors that I put my hand into with nothing concrete in it. I am pretty much the most emotional male you might ever meet. That contributes to my strength and failure which also plays a huge part in my decision making whereby a whole load of shots are called when I am feeling a certain way. As our conversation got deeper, the actualization got clearer that everything that I put my hands into was for one sole purpose, which was to touch and change another life. From the days of teaching tuition, to working with Hitz.fm, to starting the Lightbulb group, to wanting to initiate an idea called Sleeping with the lights on, to trying out my hand at business with Brown Sugar Shoes, all of it was done to make another life better...and did I mention I failed at everyone of those things miserably. This had credited to the fact that I was unreliable on decision making which contributed to me being a weak leader. This was one of those pills I had to swallow even as bitter as it tasted. I had come full circle as a leader in church too,whereby I started of as an Associate Leader to a Carecell Leader, commissioned as Sectional Leader and now 3 years later back to being an associate leader starting back at square one, in other words the biggest failure out there (this is a feat no one has performed before). Hahaha I sure do suck at a lot of things, but one thing I also suck at is quitting. So after a night of thrashing thoughts out, I came to a conclusion that I'm gonna set my mind on something and dig deep into it, alright all set; but wait! What is it that I am going to dig deep into?

Another hurdle.

I thinked about it, I dont have any conventional passions; music, sports, arts, fashion, food..none of these amuse me, maybe for a little while but had never lasted long. And so we spoke of where were the hours in my day going to cos I'm running around most of the time. Low and behold the one consistent thing that I have been doing since I was 16, fighting the war against fat! It all clicked, I woke up and I told myself If there is one thing im going to dig deep into this year is to get into the best shape of my life. I have been working out consistently for the past 5 months as well, but with not too much drive, but all that is about to change.

I took the last 2 hours of my life out to device a workout and dietary plan suited to my body after research and now I am ready, as I embark on a serious cutting streak for the next 12 weeks, its time to go hard and go home. Why am I doing this you may ask Perhaps. It is because of this kid right here.

Age 16, 95kg's.

I was obese almost my entire life, and I decided to make a change for it, and this is me back in high school with the biggest size I've been, the least self esteem I've had, and pretty much bullied a lot. So why I am doing this again? I am doing this not only for myself but for everyone out there that has faced anything I've been through, if I can make a change to how my body is shaped to be the best I can be, than who says that you can't. Take it from someone who has failed in almost every aspect of his life before, all you got to do, is get right back up, throw off the self pity and give it one more go, you can do this, you were made nothing short of greatness, give it all you've got. So, this is what my life is going to be about till the end of 2013, time in the gym, eating right, researching and getting into the best shape possible, so that I would be credible to tell others they can do it too. This is where I am beginning today and you should too. Goodnight!:)

Georgeous fitness Puchong

" the only man you should fear, is the one that has nothing left to lose " Paul Walker from Vehicle 19.